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all the project finally is DONE!but i didnt satisfy AT ALL..there's one of the project that failed..and i feel totally guilty even though the costumer said it was ok..but IT IS NOT for me..i feel like i am the most failed person in the world..*lebay* but that what i felt..failed to make the costumer happy..failed to make what that she had imagine at the first time and i ruin everything..and actually i almost think that i'm gonna quit for this job again...coz i've failed..but then my sister ask me to read jaja's note..i will copy here later..after read this note i feel a lil bit better..but still felt failed..huhuhu..
talk about the failure, i felt i failed become a good sister for my lil sister..so here's the story..
i met this BASTARD not very long time ago..maybe a couple month before my birthday..i thought he was a good person, mature, and have a respect for other's feelings or life..then he knews my sister and he told me that he like her..i told him many times before he made any movement to get closer with my sister coz i dont want my sister had to feel what i felt before, become the 'pelarian' from the oter man because he still love his ex...but this bastard told me that he wouldnt did that..he said that he only still not very sure about his feeling to my sister...then i told him AGAIN and AGAIN to THINK IT FIRST, MAKE THE FEELING SURE..i told him, if he didnt do that, i wouldnt ever allowed him to get any closer with my sister..but he did that any way, try to get closer with my sister with that pack of BULLSHIT, told this and that bla bla bla..*even just remember all those thing make me wanna slap him in his face* and at the end he told my sister that the feeling is gone..SON OF A B*TCH!
but what make me feel better now is, i know that my sister is ok now..MORE BETTER THEN EVER..thanks God..but i still feel i failed to protect her from that bastard..i should know from the beginning that bastard will never be any worthy for my lil sister..and i failed to see that..
but it's ok now, hey bastard, you know you have sister too, and you once told me, that you really love her and would protect her from every man that is not worth at all for your sister to get any closer to her..but you did what you dont want others do to your sister, to my sister..i tell you one thing, KARMA is exist..one day, you will feel what i feel..and at the time you feel that, i hope God will remind you to every single thing you did to every woman before..AMEN!