am just too tired doing things in this life..it's not like i wanna die or something but everything really messed me up and when i realized i just end up at nowhere doing nothing as what i want..
i always think that i can be a great auditor or some kind like business woman wearing those suits,heels,and everything..but as time goes by, my heart just not into it and lead me to here,where i cant even have my freedom to speak or have my own choices to have my own life..
and now it's all too late,im 23 and my mom pushed me to get married or maybe just have a guy who will ready to marry me in next 2 years,and she's the one who choose the guy,not me! what the hell?this is my life and why should i have the guy to be lived with in my entire life be choosen with other people??!!
i hate every forecasts, i hate when they say that i wont be able to make my own money, i hate when they said that i cant choose my own husband, and i hate when they start to control my life..
for God sake, am just too tired with this things..can i have some days or months off?just have a long deep sleep while everything be handled with my other personality which is more powerful than my personality now, and i just have to read the 'report' and wake when everything turns great..
gosh,..