feels like it's been years i've left my blog all alone..hahaha..well,there's so many things happen, so may things change..and maybe most of them was sad but i believe those all worth it to go through cause i know it will make me maturer.."God let me have it then God will help me walk through it."
where shoud i start?
hmm...maybe i should have forget and forgive all this things and that people but still it makes me disappointed so much to having a friend like them..i still hate her for what she did and what she said to me before.it's ok if she want to have a 'backup' or support from her boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that she has to make her boyfriend hates me because of her words and her story about me which is eff-ing wrong.and what i hate the most is, she never felt any guilty for doing that and with that stupid innocent face she tell everybody that my words was too harsh and my attitude was so weird and what i did was an act to avoiding them.what the hell is wrong with her mind actually?
first of all,she told me that it's a weird thing because i start to be an introvert person,never tell any story about my problem to her anymore and blah blah blah, and i was think, what is so very wrong with that?! what is wrong if idont want to share my problem to her?i dont even share it to anyone, and if i did, is she has any right to say that i have to tell my story to her too?moron.
and then,she told me that what i wrote in my twitter was always too harsh to be read.that was a most silly statement ever for me. that is my twitter account and i never mention those harsh words to ANYONE. why would she care about that?and why should she mind that?i dont even mention that to her!
and what most annoying is,she start preaching at me, said that i was totally wrong when i wrote those harsh words cause that will make my life more and more unpeace. HELLO!this is my life i guess and i definitely know what i'm doing and what i should do when i get truly mad.if you dont like everything that i've wrote then you can simple unfollow me.that's it!dont ever try to make me do what you did to your life.we are DIFFERENT.
and it still not end yet,she asked me about what makes me so mad to her so that i talk to her rarely, and i told her, i hate her when she told that my attitude is looks like a bitch because i talk harsh words and my thought to wear a bikini and i hate her because she said that my dream to get married in my 25 or 26 is totally insane. who the hell is she? she's not my mom,and she definitely DOESN'T me that well and she doesn't have that right to say that! she said that if only my mom isn't a strict parent i would end up being a bitch. damn you!
and after i told the 'what-i-hate-about-her' list she said, "when did i say all of that?i dont think i have told that things to you" *just go to hell*
how come i forget all those words?do you think i arrange all those story?once again i said, i am not you that can do that such thing like you do,like arrange all those story about me which is definitely wrong to others.
but i'm still thanking God for all of this.for letting me know that i have that such kind of friend.oh,i dont think that she should be called friend anymore.well we still can be friend,which means i will make like this argument never happens,but dont ever think i would want to talk much to you again.i will answer what i want to.and dont you ever think this is because i dont wanna lose you as my friend,it's all because i still respect your boyfriend,which is too naive to believe with your story about me and hate me till now and dont want to talk with me and start to act like you by blame me for what i did in the past.
huuff...
well, at least i've learn that everybody's changing, and the ones you should depend on beside Gods is not friends but FAMILY. i love how the condition between me and my mom is getting better now..i can share stories..although we still arguing for some topic, but what makes me happy is we can discuss things. :)
that's all for today i guess..got to finish my lil sis' essay..she asked me to help her do her essay because she's not good at making an essay..will wrote again tomorrow.. :)
