isnt it a weird thing if i always write about marriage thing?hahahah..
ok tonight i wanna talk about my friend's brother marriage, which was held on 14nov2010 at Graha Manggala Siliwangi.
yes it was a HUGE party. and it was AWESOME!! i love all the decoration and all the ceremony..too bad i didnt see the first part of the ceremonial..but i really love the concept of their wedding.
they've been together for about 10 years, *yes it really AH-mazing for me* and the concept was sweet memories. you can see all of their photos since they became a couple..and not only photos, but you can see the groom's love letter for the bride's birthday *sweeett* then the decoration was really comfortable..all covered with yellow and green colors.
the best part of their wedding party was when they had their first dance and ended with wedding kiss..i wish i could have that kind of chemistry someday with my mr. right. hahaaha..
their friends make a little surprise for the couple. they made them a video that contain their comments about the couple as personal and as a couple, i envy their friendship somehow..i knew from someone that their friendship is always sincere, and i saw it yesterday. somehow i wish i could have that kind of friendship. hahaha..
let me tell you about their first dance, it started with slow song while they do the waltz, then suddenly the song turns into Jacko song and they do some funny motion, and song switch to Buble-Everything song, and they dance again, and that song ended with their wedding kiss..i wish i could record the dance but i were too busy to admire the dance..hahahaha..
in short, it really an AWESOME wedding party!

ps: gonna post some photos later..

i feel grateful for everything happens in my life
i feel grateful for family that God sent me to
i feel grateful for everyone that i've met, friend or foe
i feel grateful for every problem i face
i feel grateful for every heartbroken that i felt
i feel grateful for every love i've shared with
i feel grateful for MOM that God had give to me.

baby: "God please tell me which angel that will be my guardian when i finally come down to earth?"
God: "you will simply call her MOM."

actually i've wanted to write this post for so long, but with this and that i couldnt make it happen. and now, today, something's happen. and mom shared some advices again to me and my big brother.from every words i heard from my mom's mouth, all i hear is always about how she feels so much blessed with everything in this world, in her life. i cant even imagine if i was in her position, facing all this problem, maybe facing 'me' is frustrating enough but her problem is not only me. she has so much -too much i guess- problem as a woman, as a housewife, as a breadwinner, and as a mother for 4 of us.

so this thought pop up in my mind, will i ever survive if i dont have mom?
i came to some funereal lately, -and yes, it's not a good news, at all- some of my friend lost their dad, grandpa, grandma. and once i put myself in their position. i hurts me so bad. i cant even imagine live in this world without mom. she is everything to me. someone i can lean on no matter how often we arguing. and i said this to myself. 'no, i dont wanna lose mom when i still live, somehow it feels so much better if i leave first so that i dont have to face all that sadness alone.'
i know maybe it sounds selfish, and maybe i seems like a person that too afraid to face the reality. but no i cant, i cant live without mom. she's my life.

God, please give my mom long life, health, patience to face all her problem. and lead me on Your way so i can be a daughter that my mom can be proud with, and a daughter that she always can count on. amen