my best friend, phi said, "
people change. sometimes they change too much that make you just want to stay away from them."and yes, she's right. lately, i've let myself 'untouch' to some people who used to be very close to me before. not because i hate them, it's just because they already change. i am change. he change. she change. they change. WE ARE ALL CHANGE. and i didn't blame them for that changes, i'm not on my capacity to do that. but i think i see enough that along with all those changes, our bond is also change. i'm not saying that they're a bad friends, they've been good to me and i thank God for sending them into my life. but nothing stays the same, and everything has to move on.
we're all have more responsibility for everything since we're all graduate from the college, and for me, i have bigger responsibility i guess, knowing that my parent is a single fighter and i just feel that i should be there beside her to accompany her.
what i cant ever accept is the fact that one of my friend said that i was too sensitive and the other said that i was arrogant and didn't know how to enjoy this life. she said that i was too busy helping my mother and my mom should give permission to me to go play around with them every sat nite. fyi, this is my choice. playing around needs money and i don't think i have an ability to earn my own money to support my own life, so i decide to saving my money instead to discard them. and one more thing is, i think i have to be with my mom more and more. i've let myself become too far from mom. i dont understand why they keep telling me that what i've decide is not a good choices and that i still should go out and bla bla bla. it's ok if they're all still the same person to me, but they're not anymore. they're good, but we're just too different.
so i heard this news, one of my friend -which is i know that she was very allergic to smoke and hate all the smoker- now become a smoker. how could she? i just dont get it. worse, she don't want anyone knows -esp. her family- that she's a smoker and a drinker now. why? if she don't want everyone judge her a bad person, then she shouldn't do that bad thing. ok. i know it's none of my business, but it is too pathetic, knowing that she should be someone that her father can be proud of. and i don't think it's a right way to take when you feel so depressed. i know, i have no capacity to say this, because i also had done the worst thing when i felt depressed, try to kill my own self, but i just dont want my friend become someone who change to bad person.
well, it all was just my opinion. hope the rumor is just a rumor, i hope it's not right. i hope she still and wil be a great therapist without any bad impression.