I hate this. Now why am I the one that is wrong?
I ALWAYS wrong anyway.
Never heard.
And now I am wrong.

What is so wrong about being 25 and still single anyway? Why is that so bothering all of you. And when it comes I choose my own choice, there's no chance to prove that I can choose properly.

Yesterday I have a lil chit chat with mom. And I told her about some
of a boy friends of mine. After I toldher the whole story, her respon
was, "you have so many boy friends, why isn't there any of them that
attract you?" And I was like, WHAT?! Where have you been mom? Almost
all of them I was talked about I attradted to. But you know why
there's no one you heard about before? It's because I know they would
get rejected. And now, after I'm 25 you start to affraid? Why mom? Why
you already realize like, now?

Bukankah semuanya berawal dari mimpi?
Kita bermimpi bersama, tentang masa depan. Bahkan sebelum semua terlihat jelas.

Bukankah semua berawal dari mimpi?
Ketika semua khayal dan asa kita terbangkan bersama-sama ke langit untuk meminta restu.

Bukankah semua berawal dari mimpi?
Bahkan ketika mungkin mimpi itu hanya kita bagikan di antara kita berdua agar tidak ada yang mencurinya.

Bukankah semua berawal dari mimpi?
Ketika semua rasa menjadi satu cinta.

Bukankah semua berawal dari mimpi?
Yang kemudian kautinggalkan untuk pergi bersama bayang-bayang mimpi lain.

Mungkin ini hanyalah mimpiku seorang. Bukan kamu. Bukan kita.

no one to talk to.
no one understand the feeling.
no tears come out.
pain inside.

So yesterday I had a convo with my lil sis. About how that people has treat me. I still don't get it. What am I do wrong? What did I say wrong? Why she do this to me? I thought other my friend still do the right thing, but the my lil sis said, that he's just the same and she thinks he just did something that actually hurting more than the other do.
And maybe that's right. I lived in a friendship I don't know anymore. Tell me I'm wrong. Yes, I admit I am. I pull myself from the circumtances. People changes and I'm change and I don't get it what actually we're doing. I don't want that kind of friendship. I hate being talked about behind my back. I hate when some person just telling bullshit about me, while I didn't do that at all. Is that a friendship?
I just pull myself for my family. My life is not that glamour. I have to earn money for myself. I have a responsibility. I want to be with my mom. What is wrong with that? I'm not saying that the other don't have that responsibility I have to do, but somehow this is what I'm supposed to do. And I don't see there's something wrong with that. I mean, you choose your family over your friends, and what sounds wrong about that?
I feel betrayed, when they say I'm oversensitive. And what makes me even mad is she said that I just don't like about the status changes of her and him. Oh c'mon, who the hell are you anyway? Just deal with the situation. You can do everything you want. Everything, even eating a shit. But just don't bring me to the circle.you've hurt me enough with your previous words and all that lie story, now you want to say to the the world that I'm so jealous with your relationship status? I just don't get it. What am I do wrong? You told everyone that lie and make them think that I'm that insane.
What am I do wrong?